how can a man loves a woman when he do not trust her at all?

Tuesday, September 19, 2006

how do u react to the man who do not trust u when he is in needs?

i am sick for a few days and finally i went to see a doctor... i went back home and rest after taken my medicine... he came back in the night and showed his concern... me was lost as i do not know what to do...

he told me he don't trust me in the morning and in the evening he showered me his concern... in my mind and heart, me was thinking was this real? is he really still loves me? or he just wants sex?

me really do not know what he really wants?

in my mind now, this question keeps poping out : does he still loves me?

Monday, September 18, 2006

a message from me to you

this is the song you sang for me on our wedding day:-
I wanna make you smile
whenever you're sad
Carry you around
when your arthritis is bad
All I wanna do is grow old with you
I'll get your medicine
when your tummy aches
Build you a fire
if the furnace breaks
Oh it could be so nice,
growing old with you
I'll miss you
Kiss you
Give you my coat
when you are cold
Need you
Feed you
Even let ya hold the remote control
So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink
Put you to bed if you've had too much to drink
I could be the man who grows old with you
I wanna grow old with you
does this still stand?

the man you sleep with every night tells you he do not trust you at all, what will you do?

this happened to me... and i am at a a loss... hurts and betrayed.... what did i done wrong that i deserve this?

we did not talk for 3 days after a small quarrel over wet floor in the bathroom... he accused me for not closing the door while bathing... the fact was i did... i did closed the door... he just don't trust me... we had a small quarrel over this...

this morning, i sent him a message :
w: "how can a man loves a woman when he don't believe her at all?"
and this was his reply :
m: "i have the same sentiments"

one of his message to her was :
m: "how can i trust you if you are always hiding things from me? Do you find it difficult being Honest?"

when i got this message, i was shocked and hurt... what did i do that i not being honest with him? what did i hide from him? since we are married, i being very honest and i tried to be a good wife. i did not flirt behind his back.

the messaging stopped for quite awhile... and i sent him my last message :
w: "if you feel that i failed being your wife and you can't trust me anymore, i respect any decision you made."

before i sent that message out, i asked myself this 'can i still love this man who don't trust me anymore?'

to be honest, i yet to have the answer yet.